Why isn't my health important enough to me?

Well it is weeks (and weeks) later and I am only now remembering my initial objective - to keep my diabetic health at the forefront of my mind. Actually only now "acting" on my initial objective would be more accurate.
Why is it I allow myself to be busy and not look after myself? Why is taking the kids to the doctors more important to take myself off to the doctors (BEFORE it becomes a crisis)?

I KNOW that complications of diabetes happen... I KNOW that I am not invincible! Even though I have been lucky to have avoided any major complications so far - it is a matter of time before I reap the consequences of poor diabetic control and my lack of positive action about it. I don't want diabetic complications... I don't want to die early... I don't like hospitals and shudder at the thought of the things that can/will go wrong due to continual and unnecessary high blood sugar levels.... then WHY OH WHY do I not change my poor practices???

My desire to live long and healthy is there... My desire to look after myself is there.... However I need to change my "DEFAULT" of not addressing things in my life until they become a crisis. My default is to deal with the things that scream the loudest... So background noise too easily gets lost...

I desperately hope I can instigate change (more than just writing about my desire for change).

So... what to do.... Well maybe my next step is to set some action goals - Here they are:

Blogging Goal = In the next 7 days to BLOG about my Diabetes Journey at least 2 more times. The underlying goal of this is to keep my diabetes at the forefront of my mind and my desire to be healthy at the top of my priority list each week... It acts to remind me.

Diabetic Goal = Blood Sugar Levels - In the next 7 days, to actually record my Blood Glucose Monitor results DAILY :) When I keep records I am automatically more aware of areas needing improvement etc... It is a first step that helps me then go and see a doctor also - I have previously cancelled SOOOO many appointments due to feeling that they can't really help me because I haven't kept any records for them to analyse.

Lets see how I go.

Introduction

Hi, this is my attempt at keeping my attention on my health... in particular - my DIABETES... I was 10 years old when I was diagnosed with Juvenile Onset Diabetes (now known as Type 1 Diabetes). It is now 25 years later and I have had Diabetes for over two thirds of my life!

My current struggle (well thats not true - its been my struggle since um... well...forever) is all about keeping my health and my Diabetes control as a PRIORITY.
What happens is... I am busy... my kids need feeding... I am running out the door... I FORGET my insulin... big oops... why does situations like this happen so often? Because MY DIABETES is not at the top of my priority list... I make do... I simply have extra insulin (and sometimes ova compensate causing low Blood Sugar) or put up with feeling yucky because it is so high/up and down...

This is my default - It is NOT actually what I want... What I want is to live a long life FREE of Diabetes Complications... See my kids grow up and get to absolutely grow old with my man... So why don't my actions even begin to reflect this?

Well... I recognise that I too easily put others needs (kids/husband) before my own... Not because I am wonderful but because its easier... I know that I avoid thinking about complications because its not nice to think about... This keeps everything else higher on the priority list and thus my Diabetes loses out to whatever else is going on in my day. I wonder if any other Diabetics are out there who have a similiar struggle???? Anyone???

So this brings me to this blog. One way to think more about my health is to be reminded regularly that I do WANT it to be a PRIORITY because I WANT TO LIVE LONG AND AVOID COMPLICATIONS.... I am yelling this (in capitals) so that maybe my brain will see that it IS IMPORTANT!!!!

This is my journey towards a better life where I value my health (by looking after my Diabetes) and my actions reflect my own worth (I prioritise my Diabetic needs each day!)... Here we go :)